I haven't been around here much and do to much stress in my life I haven't had much time to answer you all.

As you have guessed by the title it is is about two special people in my life..

Fuma and Raine... had you guessed?

Well there are many great people in my life.. some of them I sadly don't talk to as much as I use to.. But hey that is life.
So if you are not Raine or Fuma don't think you don't matter.. cause you do.

But.. this is a special call out to those two damn special people... I love them..

They are there for me ALWAYS... and have both been there for years.
Though I am far from perfect and neither are they, we staid together.. grew closer ith each fight and laugh we shared.

Still some times we disagree.. But we know even with that.. the other will always be there.
No one has ever really done that before.
I have had best friends, great friends and good friends that in the end left cause something shiney out there was fun for now.

But to these two I have always been a shiney thing

They have given me soo damn much.
I don't mean the drawings (they are both AMAZING artists.. and this I am proud to say is not something I say cause they are my dear friends.. but it is the truth.. so great)

Nor is it do to the gold imbroided Kimono Raine gave me or the many other gifts I have gotten from them.

But it is do to the way they help me, guid me, laugh with me and KICK my ass when it needs to be.
For these two I want to be the best I can be (that is saying a lot cause I am at times a lazy bitch)

They believe in me.. I never had to make up anything or hid anything from them.
It was just enough to be.. ME.. which means a lot.

I have had many people in my life where I had to give and give and give.. But they seemed to always forget to give back.
People that came with their problems but never asked me about mine.
People that forgot all we had done through our friendship..

I thought it was just the cost life had.. But damn was I wrong.

And you know what?

I am SOOOO lucky (LUCKYYYYYY) they both love Yaoi rpging as well..
Sadly though I feel they both are better at it then me ( lol) but they will tell you it is untrue..

They both inspire me a lot.

I wish they would love themselves as much as I do them.. cause they are worth it.

A thanks also goes out to Sarius, Bon, Heidi, Jesper, MIKI, Sisse, Chris, Alex, Thue, Freddy (big thanks), mervi, Bonnie, Anna, Liuwina, Lin, Anita and a few others

Please.. this is not to make anyone out to be less woth then others.. cause no one is.. we are all worth the same.. ^__^

PS: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY in like 1½ months *jumps up and down* RAINE is coming to stay with me for a week or so.. we are going to cosplay, rpg, drink, cook japanese and chinse food (she is part chinese.. so lucky), watch anime, act insane, go for walks, dress up, take pictures and do NAUGHTY things together (it will be xrated .. sorry kiddies) LOL.
I can hardly wait!!

And we are going to see EM in Knight jousting.. with Freddy, Birthe, Liam,Kim and Birthe's sister.. YAY it was soo cool last year.. Raine brought me a big piggy teddy and I LOVE it so much (not as much as her though LOL)
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I think that is is ... YAY LOL

if this is very weird.. sorry I have a fever and have for 6½ days now...